I’m with the dirty mouth girls….

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 I’m with the dirty mouth girls. The ones with bare feet, brilliant minds, messy hair, wild hearts and feisty spirits. The ones who aren’t afraid to speak up and who live for doing what they’ve been told is impossible.

      -Brooke Hampton

I’d say the last 2 years was nothing

short of this.

Or maybe forget the 2 years

The wild is just a part of my nature…

but I always welcome impossible.

Always have.

No matter the circumstances…

If it comforts my curiosity…

Why not take the chance?

The worst that could happen is I fall

Like really fall.

I’ve always been afraid of that.

There’s definitely a part of me that

still is.

Who will catch me?

What if I can’t get back up?

There has always been too much

risk involved.

So I play my role

I act the part of the undefeatable

I don’t lose composure and then

I start to believe that I am a

MF BOSS.

With that little white lie all tangled

up somewhere between reality and

my imagination.

I’m searching for the truth,

while healing from those little dark

pieces of my wild heart along the

way.

But I did fall.

I didn’t just fall

but I let go completely.

Lost absolutely everything

that I knew to be true

I lost myself,

my life,

my dreams,

friends,

and Family.

Every time “I lost”

it was devastating

but maybe you never knew.

The piece I was missing the entire

time is what I was

CREATING.

I learned that through destruction

and loss emerges the empty space.

My saving grace.

   “Everybody pays attention to the things in space, but who pays attention to space itself?”

                                              -Eckhart Tolle

I unintentionally learned

how to let go and

honor the “space” of creation.

Loss was my bittersweet angel

walking through it all with me the

entire time.

Loss was the only one

that was going to ALLOW me to fall

and

kiss my cheek when I did.

I finally learned

What a beautiful gift that is.

So YES,

I’m with the dirty mouth girls.

The ones with bare feet, brilliant minds, messy hair, wild hearts and feisty spirits. The ones who aren’t afraid to speak up and who live for doing what they’ve been told is impossible.

After a 3 year hiatus, my website is launched and I’m back… better than I was before 🙂